DaBabs

San Antonio, I hardly know ye

I really don't know this city. After a year, you'd think I'd feel like I know this city pretty well, but I don't. People kept asking me if I like living here when I was back in Omaha and I honestly didn't know what to say. I mean, the commute and weather is great, but I've barely scratched the surface in really knowing this city.

I was thinking back to my first year in Chicago and I can't really remember if I felt the same way. I was sort of in a crazy state of mind back then though, I had this boss that was exactly like the main character in Devil Wears Prada (seriously, I read the book and started hyperventilating), so I can't remember if I felt so disconnected. I probably did because I don't think I made my really good Chicago friends until after I'd been there a year.

I remember I joined the local alumnae chapter of my sorority and started to feel a bit more connected when I did that. But I'm really not interested in doing that this time. It's not like I was really into the sorority in college and I'm certainly not now - 12 years out. I remember going to some college alumni events too - and I'm not sure that's what I'm looking for either.

I tried this mom club my neighbor belongs to and some of the women were really cool, but a couple were just so awful. Truly judgmental and you could tell they were judging me for being one of the working moms. Don't need that.

Frankly, what I'd really love to do is get back into acting, but I'm not really sure how I'd find the time, or the support, to do that. I sort of look back at that time in my life with a glow. I wasn't like the best actress ever, but I remember this really great feeling of working with these people who were all sort of misfits like me. We used to go to Village Inn or Perkins after play practice and have these really deep conversations about life. We all just had this belief that so much was ahead of us. And it was. I guess I'm interested in recapturing some of that feeling again.

posted by DaBabs @ 9:28 PM